No matter how hard I try. It is NEVER and will NEVER be good enough. My efforts will never pay off. I know this seems like I’m being a little harsh and quite possibly downing myself, but it’s quite the opposite. It’s a wake up call. My efforts, they don’t mean a thing. Spending my day faking a smile and trying to brighten others’ day means nothing. I am in a rut. If a person could be at the epicenter of an asymptote, then I would be there.